how the tree grew out of the piano
how the piano came to float
upright
out of the house on Anthracite Ave.
during those three days in June
our Agnes Flood splintered the door
wide-freeing the black, the white
keys from their silent, undone
sostenuto extending down the street
how the piano came to the traffic light
corner of Center & Main
how it crossed, made it as far as
the dike where it struck, lifted then lodged
into that bank of earth
the one that had failed at its first
duty to keep the necessary river out
how the piano stayed
unnoticed by the dump trucks bridging the borough
those weeks after
the waters receded & everything by then was
mud & dust & rust & reek & piles
of the ruined & disheveled
a dissonance from every curb
prolonged
how the piano remained
(seemingly) sight unseen
how silt from the spring thaw pressed in
rush & deposit
made a windowbox of its hammers & strings
how an accidental samara—maple or ash—
settled, split, grew a green
sprout in one year
tremelo stick in two
a sapling by five that would have taken
stronger arms than Samson’s to root out
how the tree grew & grew & grew
how a lonely woman one day walking
weeding the dike of trash
came upon it marooned
parted the foliage, scooped
her fingers into the damp
once hornbeam chords now crumbling
compost from felt
noted it was a piano
noted it accompanied a tree
carried a ladder from her home on the Flats
to lean against
to climb inside its quiet
études, serenades
climbed into the honky-tonk, topmost branch
where she saw
yet again
for the first time
yet again
time & again
the river that remained
pedaling horizontal
over-strung & tonic
loud/blood
artery & vein
one more world
between
the sharp, the flat
I was on the Coast Starlight,
the end point Salinas,
then a rental and the highway, 101,
that unwind of ribbon,
Monterey to Big Sur.
But first, the territories and my pop-bead ears as the train
climbed off the grid
through the Cascades
and into the Dunsmuir dark.
Violins over the PA were evening’s vespers,
Mozart keeping score,
and the cough down the hall
might have been anything:
the predictable wheeze from a pack-a-day,
asthma, my coal miner grandfather spitting up lung.
By morning, the train closed on Oakland, a station named for a writer.
But first we had to wait—
for freight to cross a fret,
rail bridge above the tidal flats,
a mothballed fleet in the estuary at Sasson Bay.
I watched and wished the hard, sad stone
that is the bottom of my heart
would float up and out,
mingle with the eucalyptus tang, its gray and silver
peeling everywhere along this siding,
turn California la-la and light.
Instead, faded
American flags tied with faded
yellow ribbons spiraled
a street lamp in Martinez.
We passed people fishing in the shallows,
tents a skyline above rubble,
a great blue heron flapping, its neck pulled in.
On through the C & H sugar refinery at the born-again Crockett station.
Bake sales were surely held to pay for its new gilt sign!
Berkeley’s Xanadu was a chalkboard—“Whitey Repent”—
and West Oakland boasted a monument
to the Brotherhood of Sleeping Car Porters.
We barreled toward the San Andreas Fault.
Then slowed.
A ten-mile per hour crawl, the conductor told us,
because a man was sitting on the tracks,
refused to get off.
Maybe his head was a nuclear reactor.
Maybe he played the ukulele in his high school band.
Maybe he wished to be hanging instead—there’s comfort in crowds—
with the dozen chambray shirts like scarecrows on a fence
behind one more corrugated, windowless shack.
The others in the sleeper car crowded their panes,
rubbernecking, righteous: It isn’t us.
I was already absent,
my naked body flying like a Chagall bride
through the parlor car—
forget about switchbacks and real time,
right into a Roman bath
cantilevered over the Pacific.
Where Ursa Major coddles, a velvet bowl above,
and my sturm und drang’s abandoned,
no, more like dashed, to the rocks below,
one evening’s soak to leach any guilt
from these pores after I’ve traded the tides
for his touch to shiver my gangplank,
dip me below the firmament in a waltz.
And I haven’t even gotten to my next extraordinary:
thousands of monarch butterflies
on their way from the inter-mountain region of Utah
to winter along the central coast.
The next day, they will roost
in the photinia outside my room.
How they’ll rise—tutti and con brio, then surround—
no, really, crown—
my lucky,
undeserving
head.